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Saturday, September 27th, 2008
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8:57 pm - How fucked up is my life?
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So besides the fact that most things have been great. I'm in a total crises of Miriam like proportions. My roommate is now on crack, and has a crack head woman and her 5 year old boy in our house. He's also crazy, and scares me even when he's sober. Its not just me either, I'm not crazy. All I can hear from downstairs is the crackhead lady telling him that he is a crazy person. He of course, does not agree, thus proving the point further. I need to get out of this house, and fast. But I cant. I have only $400 monthly for food, gas, coffee, anything. So I certainly cant afford a move. My parents are wiling to help, but of course, I'd also have to find a place to go. Apartments here in WC are a min of $700 plus utilities for a one bedroom. So I'd need to find a roommate. And that has worked out SO well for me this far. I'm totally clueless as to what to do next. What should I do next? I know that he fundamentally likes me as a person, because he tried to sleep with me (and said he was in love with me, but that was less scary). But I also know that he's temperamental because he then tried to kick me out of the house. I've got so much homework that a sudden move would be more than just inconvenient, but I cant get any homework done in this environment. I can barely manage to sleep at all, let alone read dry middle age Jewish history. I have his fathers contact info, but i don't know if he would tell him that i said he was on crack, so I'm too scared to tell his dad. I dont want to get evicted, I'd rather leave, it would be cleaner, and safer. I've had HORRIBLE nightmares about this house every night, an the other guy that lives here moves out in two weeks. I have no idea what to do.
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| Thursday, February 28th, 2008
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2:03 am - Plea for help
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I'll be honest with all of you. I'm in need. I could post all the bad things that have happened to me, and all about how i feel, and beg for help without saying so... but I'm too tired. So here it is, sans bullshit.
I'm doing really badly, and I need some help. I'm in Ann Arbor, and need some friends right now. I don't really want to talk about it, I just need to escape. So if you're here, please call me and we will go out and I'll buy the drinks. Just act like you want to hang out and get drinks with me. It would help a great deal. I just need to act normal with friends.
thanks.
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| Wednesday, February 20th, 2008
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2:21 am - Here is it again the great return of the bad typing fucked up miriam
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its late and i have surgery in the morning. suregery is scary, and as far as hese things go. mine is tame... like a dove. But i'm loosing my mind. for many things.
my slitude that i frouhghted for so har is that which will hurt me.
my family is hurtign me, because the backbone is hurting, and my foor hurts. i have fears for the after part. the part when the doc says, this is what it is... then they say , this is what it means, the whole thing does really scare me.
and alone in the woods, best place to be. but what am i going to do? how will i survive withiut friends family and sex... all alone working on more and more meaningless problem and projects.
or should i start the crusade that it will be to fix my legal standing. i will have to drive illeagally to three states to put myself in jail to prove who i;m not. i'm ready too. i'll go to jail. maybe the feeliong if stagnant restlessness will adibe if i can NOT leave.
i miss a softer thing to squeeze and cry on. i need to get my shit together. bad dreams every night. over two months now, and i can get a night full. allways waking up during, or after.... and too scared t continue i give up. let the apocalispe come, i prepare by day for the things i see. the wolves and vamps and cayotes, and even the large tankers to haul the goods to former yugoslavia. oi! i see you brought the starfuit.
current mood:  where is me mind?
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| Thursday, February 7th, 2008
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5:48 pm - Good and horrible.
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I got lighting! Three monolight strobes, plus a great collection of accessories! I've got umbrellas reflectors, soft boxes, stands and best of all... a boom stand! So I'm pretty much all set for the cookbook!
The bad news... I may be in jail before I even get started. My identity has been stolen by my sister, and she has gotten my liscence suspended, plus there are warrants out for my arrest. I just found out the latest, and it keeps getting worse.
I hate my life.
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| Sunday, December 23rd, 2007
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2:34 am - Balls
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| Friday, November 30th, 2007
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3:09 am - You know what I havet done in a while?!!!...
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ambian post! hooray! There, I've done it. now that the things has been done i can sleep? I sleep with hot tea and bye bye bierdy. I thoguth I wasa smart, and remebered the drink as well, so i feel sheepish and beddish.
More in another god know holong you psycoambianites.
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| Thursday, September 27th, 2007
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9:09 pm - Ode To Spot
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Felis Cattus,
is your taxonomic nomenclature,
an endothermic quadruped carnivorous by nature?
Your visual, olfactory and auditory senses
contribute to your hunting skills, and natural defenses.
I find myself intrigued by your subvocal oscillations,
a singular development of cat communications
that obviates your basic hedonistic predilection
for a rhythmic stroking of your fur, to demonstrate affection.
A tail is quite essential for your acrobatic talents;
you would not be so agile if you lacked its counterbalance.
And when not being utilized to aide in locomotion,
it often serves to illustrate the state of your emotion.
O Spot,
the complex levels of behaviour you display
connote a fairly well-developed cognitive array.
And though you are not sentient,
Spot,
and do not comprehend,
I nonetheless consider you a true and valued friend.
-Data, "Schisms"
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6:13 pm - Because I lost the phone....
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I lost all your numbers.
I wont be calling if you don't give me your numbers.
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| Wednesday, September 26th, 2007
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11:28 am - I lost my phone
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So don't be surprised if I don't answer.
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| Wednesday, September 12th, 2007
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3:05 pm - Hag Samayach everyone!
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Thats right! Its Rosh Hashona! How are YOU celebrating?
Be sure to eat apples and honey, or challah and honey. Why? Because they are delicious snacks, and you will be participating in age old tradition, and thats always gratifying.
I myself will be attending Shul for the first Rosh Hashona in Years. I've gone for Yom Kippur, but I'm really excited about tonight. After the service, I'll be out on a... date? So its bound to be an interesting evening.
Meanwhile, I've become nauseatingly addicted to okaycupid. Only because I keep getting messages. I ought to put on an ugly picture so they stop messaging me. Maybe just a full body pic. Its the tests that are so great. I'm gonna write a good comic geek test. Someday, when I have time. I say this as i do NOT go out to look for work, and am NOT cleaning my house.
But...
Its a holiday! YAY!
current mood:  festive
current music: Martin Sexton
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| Tuesday, September 11th, 2007
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3:26 am - I went on a date
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But i think he's gay. Theater major... again.
It was fun though, we got along.
Hooray for my guts!
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| Sunday, September 9th, 2007
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10:51 am - update
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I'm in two classes, then I graduate.
I went to a Flaming Lips show, it was great.
Adam is staying with me for the week, till his new place opens up.
Heather is awesome, and I'd missed her much.
My kitties resettled instantly.
Things are okay in general.
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| Sunday, July 15th, 2007
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2:15 pm - Leaving town
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I'll be back.
Have to graduate.
I'll be checking the email,
even if the phone doesn't work.
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| Thursday, July 12th, 2007
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2:01 pm - Check me out people!
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I've put together a website.
Dont use explorer, explorer sucks and wont work, dont bother.
firefox works, and safari should.
tell me what you think and if i need to fix anything!
oh, and its WAY better if your screen resolution in over 1024x768
miriamevephotography.com
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| Saturday, June 23rd, 2007
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10:42 pm - Rogers park shooting
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see... you stupid fuckers...
"Officers at the scene last night told reporters that there was a warrant out for Morgan's arrest for violating the terms of his parole, but the officers who were involved in last night's shooting were not aware of his identity until after they shot him."
suck on that you sons of a motherless goat.
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| Wednesday, June 20th, 2007
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3:32 pm - Rogers Park Shooting
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Last night a MAN in a GANG was shot outside my house. i posted about it. in my livejournal. that my FRIENDS read.
I referred to him as a 'kid' (he was 21 years old). I said "poor kid." Yes, believe it or not, i am sorry that a man was shot and killed. In a gang or no. I must be a stupid leberal commie fucker.
I was immediately attacked by anonymous posters, calling me "dipshit" and saying he deserved to die.
Yes, I have deleted that entry.
All you too pussy to show your faces on your comments... chock on a cock.
I'm still sorry that a man died last night.
No, you cannot post here.
you cannot reply.
Hate me in peace.
I've never been bored enough to bother stranger online, suddenly my life has more meaning.
Get a fucking life.
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| Friday, June 15th, 2007
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12:05 pm
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I'm updating out of boredom, plus, its been a while.
I'm at school now. On Fridays I have one class, from 8:30-5.
Suck.
We have an hour and fifteen minute lunch break which I find terribly irritating. I think I'm the only one in class who has no friends/interest, and therefore have nothing to do for this 1.25 hours, and would much rather just sit throught this class, and leave an hour early. Again... suck.
So instead of doing what I've been doing for the past three weeks (sitting in the basement of the school watching the clock), I'm trying to get some work done. But it still sucks.
I have a five page paper due monday! EIIGGHH!!!!
I'll do it tomorow...?
I start therapy tomorow. I havent been in like... 6 years?
But some people (you know who you are) made me realize that I am crazy, and need therapy.
I'm holding off on the drugs this time though, at least for a while. I think it would be nice if I knew what the problem was, before trying to treat it... if there is one.. is there one? Who said i had a problem?
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| Wednesday, June 13th, 2007
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2:25 am - Jesus...
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i just spent an hour playing bill the demon.. nostalgia + insomnia = waste of my life.
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| Friday, May 18th, 2007
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11:18 am - Well, that was a fun summer break...
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I start school on Monday.
I'm SO not ready for this.
current mood:  school... what?
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| Thursday, May 17th, 2007
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1:49 am - Oh jeez
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i just got a bogus grade, and i am not taking it laying down.
i wrote a letter to the former acting char, as the new one is not an real person i can find...
i need opinions on the letter before i send it...
Hello,
My name is Miriam Borenstein. I'm not sure that you will remember me, i spoke with you during the Fall semester about my difficult transfer. You were able to help me a great deal. I have a new problem, and am not finding it easy to find information from Columbia's website to help me. I received my final grades from this past semester, and feel that one of my instructors graded me not on my work, but on their personal feelings about me. I would like to make a formal complaint, and find out what happens to a students grade in these situations. I know that you told me when we spoke that you were not the acting chair, but Mr Friedman's website claims that he is not either, and you really helped me quite a bit before.
Any information would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you for your time,
Miriam Borenstein
sound professional enough?
help?
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